Your History!

I don't know what had happened. I was running and all of a sudden I found myself in someone's arms. I couldn't see who at first. My mind was blank. I could only see my child's face. I could hear him telling me that it was 'ok now'. Ok? how could it be? Tom was here, I don't know how he found out, someone must have called him. When I could think again. I asked him to let me! that going was the best thing to do. The only thing I could do was hurting the people i loved.

With slow determination I set off towards Jacob's house. Someone needed to talk to him, and Maddie was indisposed. This would be a real test.

I heard Maddie behind me, running frantically. I sped up. She didn't know what I was doing, and she didn't realize that it was something I needed to do. I had to do this if I was ever going to act like her sister again.

I heard the footsteps behind me stop, and I knew instantly what Maddie was thinking. I knew she couldn't cross that line. And I knew she would never belong with us, and that hurt more than I realized it could. She didn't want to be my sister if it meant she couldn't be his wife. She would rather be with him than us, and the pain only increased my speed. I stopped at his door, unable to knock. I was sure he could smell and hear me by now.

I was still in the middle of the forrest. Tom was trying to make me hear reason. He too was against Jacob at first but he accepted him them. He did NOT hurt his daughter. I did. He couldn't understand. "Alice" he said. "you can't change what happened but you can help making thing right again." Making things right ... how? I destroyed my own child, I destroyed her, her love, her chances to happiness, ... "It too late" I replied. "All this is my fault, i hurt everyone arround me, now Maddie hates me." He stared at me. I couldn't understand the emotions in his eyes. Pain, confusion, comprehension? ... I couldn't tell. "She doesn't hate you. If she did she wouldn't have called me and told me to stop you." Maddie called him. I couldn't understand why. "She loves you" he continued. "she was touched my your appologies, by the fact that you wanted her to be happy even if it was with Jacob". Suddenly it all became clearer.

I took a deep breath. "Okay. You don't know me. I don't know you, but you have to let me do this. Because I have to do this. And you can't talk, because if you talk, I won't be able to, and if I can't this will never work. And this has to work-"I broke off, sobbing. "this has to work because I have to keep my sister. And she loves you. You are ruining our lives and it's my fault and that's killing me so I have to fix it. She loves you, and she gave in to us when she shouldn't have. You hate us. It's understandable, I don't like you much myself. It's instinctive, but I'm here right now anyway, for her. So you need to do something for her and you need to find her and show her that she's still got a shot. A shot at the happiness I tried to destroy. I'm ready to accept you if you can accept us. And I know that made no sense, but I said it, So I'm begging you please for the love of God will you go out there and act like the amazing husband you are." I said. By the end I was screaming. Screaming silently as I turned and ran, collapsing hardly half a mile away.

I stared into his eyes for a moment while i was realizing what I was doing. I had a chance, a chance to make it better. I had to do it. I needed to find her, to tell her I loved her once again. Tom smiled, he knew me too well. He knew what I was gonna do without needing an explaination. "I love you" I told him before running once again but in the opposite direction. I needed to see Maddie. I ran trying to find her smell and then I knew she where she was. When I arrived next to her, the same pain spread all over me. She was an the ground with the same expression she had when I talked to her. She loved him and she was broken. She thought that Jacob would never take her back. But he loved her as much as she said he did, as much as she loved him, I knew he would. "Maddie" I said as I tried to get her on her feet. I needed to take to him.

As I tried to make her to move forward she wiggled away. It was gonna be harder than I thought. "Maddie" she stubbornly turned her head away from me. It hurts. "Maddie listen to me" I said my voice strong. "You need to listen to me! You told us that he loved you back, he you truly believed that then how can you think that he would not take you back?" I wasn't sure if she was listening to me but I needed her to. "You can't give up. I want you to be happy no matter what it takes. I can see that you love him with all your heart, with your entire soul. Even if I tried not to see it, I know that he loves you too. We have to go find him. He needs to know the truth." I waited for her to do something, to say something.

I couldn't understand why she was refusing to understand. "Maddie you didnt do anything wrong, I did. I pressured you to break you marriage, to give up on love." I was feeling worse and worse. I was disgusted at myself. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I needed to steady myself, I needed to continue. "He can't be mad at you, he will understand your position. If he really loves you he will understand. He knows how important your familly is to you, or maybe was. After what I did I doubt that you love me anymore. If you don't want to hear reason I will go to him and explained what happened, what I did. I will tell him how I destroyed everyone, you, him and everyone else. How I destroyed your mariage, your happiness." I knew that telling him that would probably be the last thing I would do. He would never let me leave alive and I would not have the courage or the strenght the fight back but it didn't matter to me. I wanted her to be happy. I looked at her and left, running toward Jacob's house. I soon found myself confronted to him.

He was here, in front of me. I couldn't look at him. My head down I waited. I thought that he would kill me right away. I was on his lands after all. He didn't moved, he was like frozen. Still without looking up I started to talk "Jacob, I need to talk to you". I could only imagine his face. He was probably in an intense state of rage, about to jump at me, to kill me but I didn't wanted to see it. "Jacob, you can't be mad at Maddie, it is all my fault, she didn't do anything. I'm the reason why she told you she wanted a divorce. I'm the reason of all this pain, sadness and despair and if you want to kill me here, I would understand and I wouldn't fight back. I deserve it".

I was looking down. I waited for him to end it but instead he talked "I wouldn't kill you." he said. His voice wasn't angry at all, it was empty. The same voice that Maddie used to answer me. He was as alone as she was. I closed my eyes. I was relieved but at the same time even more ashamed. He wasn't about to kill me. I might have hoped he would. I would have understood. Suddenly Jacob left. I stood there frozen. I didn't know what to think.

After a moment that seemed like forever I started going back toward the house when I heard them. Jacob went to find her. I was happy. I knew that it would make her happy but then I heard her sob. My dead heart felt like it was breaking appart. I discretly went toward them. I didn't meant to spy on them but I wanted to see her happy. How could she not be since she loved him so much. When I was near enoughto see them, Jacob had Maddie in his arms. I smiled, he seemed right. How could I ever had doubted their love? I shook my head. But suddenly she pulled away and ran the fastest she can toward our house. I couldn't believe that. Why would she leave? Jacob stood there still on his knees and I felt bad once again for him, for this boy. For the first time he seemed to me like a boy, like a man. I felt pain for him, for this person that I used to loathe. I didn't know what to do. Should I go and talk to him or should I go after Maddie? What would i tell him? I wasn't gonna confort her after all I did to him and I wanted to know what Maddie thought when she pulled away from him. I ran home. When I arrived Twirls looked at me with a confused expression. "What happened?" she breathed. I just shook my head "I don't know" I told her. I needed to talk to Maddie. I ran up the stairs and then to Maddie's room. There she was, laying on her bed, her back to me. I walk forward and sat on the be, next to her. I sighed.

I wispered her name and then I asked her "what happened sweetie? What's wrong?". she didn't move as she spoke. "I think you may be right, what if he's not right for me?" she told me. This startled me. How could she say that after all that happened today? "Maddie, I've been thinking a lot today. And the more I think about it the more ashamed I am not only for what I've done but for what I believed. I always considered werewolves as ennemies. But is it true? After hours of thinking I finally think that I've always been wrong. Their only goal is to protect people. Werewolves have always been a threat to us because they always thought of us as killers. But we aren't really. We hated each other for so long and now You and Jacob stepped out of this nonsense and put appart all of this. I tried to make you think of them as monsters but I saw Jacob when you left him and I felt sorry for him. He is no more that a kid after all. How could he be so bad? You can't deny that you love him. I can feel it, I can see it in your eyes. He loves you too. Only you can decide if he is right for you but all I can say is that he is not wrong for you." She turned arround to face me. She just gazed at me wordlessly, her expression slowly brightening. I didn't hear him coming, Jacob was beside me. As a instinct reaction I stood up. I left without looking back. I knew that it should bother me that Jacob was here in our house but I had a good feeling.

I stayed downstairs. I could hear them. Being a vampire had their advantages. I couldn't believe what i was hearing. I sat on the couch and took my head in my hands. I had done a mess that i was starting to think that would never get better. I couldn't understand her. I tried to make her understand that we would accept her choices whatever those were. I stayed like that for while my head in my hand, on my knees. I was sure I couldn't feel any worse. It was all my fault I was feeling that it was stuck, everyone was hurt. I started to shake, sobbing tearlessly... Was this situation ever be better? I couldn't tell. Maddie was stubborn and knowing her as I do, I know that it could last forever. I was taken out of my thought by Jacob. Once again I didn't hear him approching. He was still, I could feel his eyes on me but i couldn't move. I was like frozen in pain. Feeling like the world had stopped spinning. I was cold.

I was lost, more than I've ever been. "Maddie, you love him, he loves you. why are you doing this? Twirls went to find him earlier and told him that you loved him. I told you that we were accepting Jacob because there is something different about him, something good. I can understand that you might want me to suffer but Jacob is didn't do anything." She tried to say something but I cut her off feeling that I wasn't gonna take it for long. I started to shake again already, my heart breaking again, turning to dust. "I hurted him and he didn't deserved it and neither did you. Why are you acting like this Maddie?" he shaking was getting hard to control, my vision was starting to fade, my mind going blank. Pain washing over me.

I was looking into her eyes. There was horror, hurt in them but also love. "Mom, I'm going to go find him. Will you be alright?" she asked me. She was gonna find him, I was happy. She was gonna be ok. I couldn't talk so I just nodded. And she left, running as she went. I never thought that I could be happy to see one of my kids ran to meet a werewolf. I was still pretty messed up but I knew that everything was gonna be ok. Tom came to me then. I turned arround to face him. His face was worried. "Are you ok?" he asked. I smiled at him. I was more than ok now. "Yes, it's gonna be fine now, she went to find him." I knew that Tom was as worried as I was about his daughter, his baby married to a werewolf. I put my hand on his cheek. "He's a good kid after all" I grimaced thinking how much I hurted him. I would never forget myself for that. My head dropped down. Tom pulled me tightly against his chest, his hand under my chin, he pulled my face up and kissed me. "Don't take all the blame on you Alice, everyone is at fault in this case. You're not the only one that pressured Maddie. We all did" I felt good here,in his arms. But I was scared that Maddie wouldn't want to talk to me anymore. Tom instantly knew what I was thinking about. "She doesn't hate you, she'll come back." he said. "I love you" was all I could reply.

Awww, I totally was married to Jake, but Maddie took him! So I'll say I'm married to Emmett. (Works for me! )

I watched as Maddie ran off too find Jake- there was so much excitement in her eyes. I decided to follow to see what would happen.

Lol Emmett is cool too Too bad it didn't work out with Jake ... maybe it's just that Maddie and him were meant to be you know

True.... but it makes me sad....

Let see my hystory... and it seems to have turned into a roleplay...
I came on the academy alittle worried I wouldn't fit in. I made some amazing friends right off the bat thanks to my now Sister, Alice Frenchy. Through her I met Jasper Hale and we fell in love. we wed soon after and had two daughters, Sonia and Nikkel. We also watched Nikkel bring a sweet grandbaby into this world named Bree. We are living happily ever after and Jasper is currently in the kitchen making his sick wife soup while she's curled up in bed .

Not as cool as Jake ()

TAB! Brandy had Bree not Nikkel! Plus Nikkel is MY daughter!

You're daughters are Brandy and sonia.. I'm not the only bad mother here! You forget about your own kids! lol

In her autobiography Tab mixed her daughers up

*sits there and waits for update*